031. I'm always right.

For Patrick, I've named this blog post "I'm Always Right". With that being said, I have nothing to say right now. I'm not in the mood to right. I hope you can dig it.

bye for life.

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030. Don't make me sing.

I don't have anything to write today. A good 30 days blogged. K, that's awesome.


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029. Awkward at best.

Really, when I say I know awkward, I really don't mean it. I learned the real definition of awkward last night. Roommate's boyfriend spent the night. I made her promise nothing would happen while I'm here (I leave at 415pm today.) Now, he stayed up until at least 1230am watching tv. I'm okay with that, I have earplugs from back in the day from when she did the same thing. It got a little awkward when he started snoring at 1am. I left the room, and headed to Jordan's, on the fourth floor where we proceeded to fail at WiiSports and SuperMario until 230am when we came back downstairs to let Jimmy in. I'm currently in the computer lab because he's just chilling in the room and I'm not about to be in there alone when roommate isn't there. So, moral of the story is, is that Music City Mystique front ensemble blocks out TV sound, but not hardcore snoring. Nothing except Wii Bowling in another room blocks out hardcore snoring. And, with that, I'm going to go take an hour long shower and pack for Redline, because, once again, it's time for the Redteam ♥


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028. Formspring

So, I was on my Formspring, answering questions that have built up since who knows when, like for the past three months, and I came across a question asked yesterday: "Why are you at Bowling Green when you hate it so much?" (minus the correct capitalization and punctuation, of course.) I, of course, answered it, but this question gave me a good topic for today's blog post. So, let's go.

I get this question a lot, and well, I absolutely hate it with a freaking passion. It's the kind of question people ask when they're uninformed and don't really understand the facts behind someone's feelings. Which, of course, makes sense. You wouldn't ask it if you already knew. I hated Bowling Green with a passion last semester because I had a roommate who, I thought, didn't care to get to know me. I now know otherwise. I hated BGSU because the weather is absolutely terrible and the people are hella rude. That is still true. The girls on my floor still walk by me and glare at me, when I smile at them. The people I encounter in this residence hall, who live on the upper floors are rude. Not all of them of course, but, the majority of them. Because they have the "oh mommy isn't watching so i can do as I want" attitude. Most of that has worn out, but some is still going strong. I hated Bowling Green State University because I wasn't involved with anything, therefore I met no new people. I hated Bowling Green because what is there to do in bum-fuck nowhere when you don't drink? Sit in your room alone, essentially.

Now, note that I say that I hated. Past-tense. Meaning that my thoughts have changed since then. I no longer hate BGSU with the passion I used to. The people who were the "rudest", I don't encounter anymore. It's gotten too cold so the smokers don't smoke outside my window as much. I still get to make a scene when they do, however. I've joined a "club" and made friends. My roommate and I are civil to each other, and the girls across the hall don't hate me like I thought they used to. BGSU is just full of things that don't work or do the jobs they should, aka, the "wireless" internet and my closet that's been fixed at least four times. BGSU is just a bunch of misunderstandings.

027. It'll leave you in tears.

I'm really enjoying Bowling Green State University compared to last semester. I've made some good friends, joined a "club", if you can call FOCUS that, and enjoy being here as a whole. It's true, what Ross says; "The night is darkest before dawn." It's really snowing outside, and I am slacking. I'll post pictures up soon. I've been so behind on posting, and this project is getting boring, but I have one follower :) So, I'm going to continue on! Only another day until Redteam.


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026. So here I am.

It's been a rough day. It's cold and windy. The kind of snow that doesn't stick to the ground is falling from the ground so when the wind sweeps it up, it hits you in the face. It's one of those days that I could just lay in my bed all day and do nothing. I'm going to go take a nap after this. I need to think about what I'm doing here. I don't want to waste money, but honestly, I can't see myself here in three years. I just can't. I don't want to be in the cold for the rest of my life.

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025. Secret Life.

So, Today was alright. I mean, I had classes. Lost of homework, lots of notes that were taken. I'm sitting in my room watching Extreme Makeover: Home Edition. Then at 8pm, Secret Life of the American Teenager is on, and afterwards Make It or Break It is on. The Buried Life is on MTV. Oh, television. Well, bye for life!


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024. Tired is the word.

I am so tired. I'm only posting so I don't ruin this project. I'll talk later. K bye.

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023. K hi!

Well, this is cheap. I'm posting now for the day. Tomorrow is a big Redline day. I'm going to down at least ten advil and pretend I'm not in pain at all. Alright. i'm tired. Peace out, yo.

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022. Never settle.

This is going to have to do for today. I'm at Redline for the weekend. Yay band :) alright well, this has been fun.

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021. We're marching on.

Flashback:

Back to senior year in high school. Back to the band practice after November 5th + Youth at the Booth. That feeling I got as I walked into the band office. The feeling that I knew I was about to get ripped apart for helping people vote. That, "oh yeah, this is going to be a bashing session" feeling. That's the feeling in my gut at this very moment. I feel like I'm preparing for war. I feel like I'm going to have to have a game plan so I don't get walked over. I feel like I'm going to have to make sure I cover my ass and my weaknesses. At the same time, I just want this to be overwith. I did nothing wrong, and I just want to leave this environment where I am treated so poorly. I wish CJB hadn't trained me to be afraid of these" talk-it-out" sessions. Every "talk-it-out" session I ever had with the CJB turned into a bashing session towards myself. I'm getting kind of sick of them. I wish this planet was ideal. The kind of planet where everyone was smart and nice to each other. The kind of planet where people could step up and be like, "oh yeah, i was wrong. I'm sorry." but, sadly we're not that advanced yet. We're not advanced enough to get along with people regardless of opinions, regardless of who we are as individuals. The common man has yet to realize that we're all on this planet together. We haven't yet realized that killing each other and fighting gets us nowhere in life. We have yet to have good enough communication skills to communicate thoroughly to each other. There is a line that is crossed when trying to communicate to one another that distorts the message. For that, I'm sorry. I am sorry that society as we know it just cannot get along.

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020. It's only an average day.

This really is not worth my time. I'm getting really sick of the spreading drama that is occurring because one little girl just cannot confront me. Apparently now, the girls across the hall aren't talking. This is great. This is wonderful. This wouldn't have happened had someone actually confronted me and told me she hates me to my face. But, apparently that is just too much to ask. Honestly, I have to problem with her, I really don't. I don't know what I did wrong, and I was willing to be friends. But, there are just people in this world that you honestly cannot get along with; there are people in this world who just do not want to be friends regardless of the situation. I understand people being non-confrontational; I myself am completely non-confrontational. That's why I've just sat here and put up with her inconsiderate actions. But, at the same time, I was foolish. I should have stood up for myself when I knew what I would be dealing with. I think we're both to blame for this situation that exploded. Although, at the same time, I think she's now purposely being a bitch because she can. I'm just going to sit here and take it, because hopefully, I'll be out of this dorm by next week. God, if that would actually happen, I'd get down on my knees and start thanking Jesus. Like, it'd be wonderful to just chill out in a room without being looked at with such hatred that is in this room. Oh well. I just wrote her a letter and stuck it on her computer.

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019. For me, it's too late.

I'm getting really annoyed with my roommate being inconsiderate. I mean, I don't have a problem that she hates my guts, but I do have a problem that she's disrespectful. Hate me as much as you want to, but at least respect me. I'm sick of being this room and not feeling welcome. I've put up with her disrespect from day one. From that first weekend at 3am when I was trying to sleep, but she wanted to play Mario Kart with some random guy, from having the window open when there are sub-arctic temperatures outside. Isn't it a sign when she turns the light on, leaves the room and comes back to find the light off? Isn't that a sign that that's just rude to leave the light on when I'm sleeping? Isn't it a sign when I ask her to turn the TV down? Apparently not. Apparently it's not enough. I shouldn't have to wear earplugs to sleep because the TV is on when I'm trying to sleep. . . So, I'm done. I'm going to talk to the RA today. I need to get out of here. I don't know where I'm going to go, but I know it needs to be somewhere where I get respect. I don't even know what I did wrong. According to her I am a "fat, smelly, waste of life." Oh, this is high school? I would have never known. I don't care that she talks behind my back. I care that she can't confront me and say it to my face. Nobody deserves to be disrespected, regardless of their situation.
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018. It's not a question of why.

So, I wrote something really boring here. But then I thought. . . why would you want to read something boring. So, I think it's time for the first survey. . . .because I'm a boring college student who has nothing to do but finish surveys. K, this has been fun. Time to begin. . . .

1. If you were to attend a costume party tonight, what or whom would you go as?
A Zombie.
2. What are your choice of toppings on a hamburger? And do you prefer gas or charcoal grilling?
cheese, mayo + tomato and I don't care.
3. You are chosen to have lunch with the President. The condition is you only get to ask one question. What do you ask?
Why does the future of this country look grim?
4. It's your first day of vacation, what are you doing?
Sleeping?
5. What is your concession stand must-have at the movies?
popcorn + extra butter.
6. Which do you dislike most: pop-up ads or spam email?
all of the above
7. What do you think Captain Hook's name was before he had a hook for a hand?
shit. that is a good question.
8. Rock, paper, or scissors?
rock.
9. How long was it from 'the first date' until the proposal of marriage? How long until the wedding?
um. what now?
10. Which is worse, being in a place that is too loud, or too quiet?
too loud.
11. What is one quality that you really appreciate in a person?
consideracy. that's not even a word. but, they have to be considerate.
12. At the good old general store, what particular kind of candy would you expect to be in the big jar at the counter?
haha, i don't know. but the speaker system just told me that there's a silver accord in a place that it shouldn't be. oh noes.
13. What is the most distinguishing landmark in your city?
um. bowling green. in the middle of bum-fuck nowhere.
14. Everyone hears discussions that they consider boring. What topic can put you to sleep quicker than any other?
politics. marriage + family.
15. How many times did it take you to pass your drivers test?
once. luckily. i almost failed.
16. If you had to have the same topping on your vanilla ice cream for the rest of your life, what topping would you choose?
hot fudge + m&ms
17. What food item would need to be removed from the market altogether in order for you to live a healthier, longer life?
everything. legit.
18. You are offered an envelope that you know contains $50. You are then told that you may either keep it or exchange it for another envelope that may contain $500 or may be empty. Do you keep the first envelope, or do you take your chances with the second?
keep the first one.
19. If you had to choose, which would you give up: cable TV, or DSL/cable internet?
tv. i can't live without the internet.
where's #20? =(
21. How much is a gallon of gas in your city? What was the highest it's been?
it was like 2.70$ on Saturday when I came back.
22. What kind of lunch box did you have as a kid?
it was purple.
23. What would you rather have, a nanny, a housekeeper, a cook, or a chauffeur?
housekeeper.
24. Would you rather be trapped in an elevator, or stuck in traffic?
trafffic, man.
25. Lets say a brick fell on your foot, and your kid is standing right next to you, what is your 'cleaned up' swear word?
if a legit brick fell on my foot, i would not be censoring myself. k thanks.

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017. Do you want to give a new nickname to your Pokemon?

Yes, yes I do. I've been spending the entire day renaming all 285 pokemon on my Platinum game. I really have no life. I did my stats homework. I still have GSW + Forensic homework as well as Pop Culture reading to accomplish. Thanks, Martin Luther King Jr., without you, i'd be going to school tomorrow :) That is all for today.

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016. Motivate.

I need to find some type of motivation. Maybe the fact that I get back on campus + nothing is open; and I'm freaking hungry. That could be motivation. Motivation to do what? Sit around and do nothing? Yeah, it's looking like that. So, I'm thinking I'm just going to go do some pokemon training and call it a night. I'll upload pictures tomorrow :)

015. Redteam.

I am so ready for a weekend with the Redteam. Although, I know that my hands will kill and I'll be hella frustrated, being up in Michigan just makes me feel so much better. I did a little craft project today that should help with learning music. Don't worry, I printed out enough for the entire vibraphone section :) I know Pat reads my blog haha. So, now I'm going to hike out to bum-fuck nowhere and get my car. Fill it up with gas and gtfo of bowling green, ohio. It's a crown weekend, so I'm really hoping I'll be back in Ohio on Saturday night. I'm only planning on staying one night up there. I hope the weather doesn't get bad. In any case, I won't be prepared. I'm never prepared for Redline. Never. I don't have any free time now that I'm actually doing work, so I'm just going to have to wish really hard that I can learn the rest of You to Thank by 7pm. Oh, my life is such a bore. I'll post pictures when I'm back in Sunday. K, bye for life.

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014. Sucked the life right outta me.

So I had one class today. And then I came back here, and I ate and I found my lost cell-phone, and I played a shit ton of Pokemon. I shot a daily picture and that's just about it. I fell asleep for three hours. The snuggie sucked the life out of me. Alyssa and I took a shopping trip and I stocked up on Vault and tea. Goodtimes. I'm so boring. How am I going to go an entire year? I'm going to have to get creative.

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013. I never meant to die.

I'll be the first to admit that I complain. A LOT. What I can't stand is when people complain to you because they don't have anything else to say to you. Okay, I get it. If you want to talk to me, just be better at small talk. I mean, honestly. It gets kind of annoying to hear complaints come out of your mouth 24/7 when you talk to me. I like helping people, and I'm always there for my friends, but it gets a little ridiculous when everytime a person talks to me, it's strictly complaints. There's a reason I didn't talk to you beforehand. Oh, humanity. What is happening to the human race? :/

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012. Class starts at 1:00; not 1:05. Be here on time.

That's what my Sociology professor said probably about a million times today. First day of class and she was kind of a nazi. It'll be an interesting semester. I'm done with classes now. I'm going to chill. I think I might take a nap actually. I need to clean and eat. And I really hope my macbook charger came in the mail. I'm procrastinating to go check. Mail usually comes around 2:30, but I'm going to wait until 3 just to be safe. I'm so ready to be done, although I'm actually not afraid of any of my classes this semester. I need to figure out what I'm doing with my life. I made a check list of things that need to get done today, so sitting here listening to Imogen Heap's "Ellipse" really isn't going to get any of these things done. K, well this has been loads of fun.


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011. I need you like the ocean needs the waves.

First day of classes. It's turning out to be a stellar day. I told my english teacher about having to miss a week for Redline in April . . . . She thinks it's school related. Finally got ate something; I didn't eat dinner last night. I'm playing pokemon and listening to Air Traffic. Absolutely wonderful. I'm on my Macbook, but I still don't have my charger. So, I'm hoping for the best. I have to go buy books eventually. I don't wanna walk in the cold. I don't wanna waste money. I have to get ready for Pop Culture now. :) Bye for life. I'm putting pictures up soon, I swear.


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010. Locked out.

So, I'm back at BGSU. It's not necessarily fun, but I'm here to get a job in the long-run. I'm sitting in the computer lab because as I was leaving home, I remembered I forgot my macbook charger. So, I don't have a charged computer :( oh no.
So, pictures will be added as soon as I get a charged computer, which should be tuesday/wednesday-ish. I actually remembered to take pictures :) My first class is at 1030 tomorrow morning, in a building that is literally a maze. So i'm going to have to find it ahead of time. I have four classes tomorrow. Not fun. I'm not done until 515, I think. Of course, Stats would have to be the latest class ever. :/ K, well this has been fun, bye for life! :)

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009. It's cold outside.

I'm in michigan. It's cold. I'm typing this on my phone because I don't have internet access. How wonderful. Oh, Redline :)

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008. Why couldn't I have gotten a snow-day?!

So the whole Dayton area is under inches of snow. I wish I were a high school student- I'd have a snow day today. Instead, I'm driving up to Michigan. Awesome!! 4 hours of driving that might take me 6. Oh, I'm so excited. Oh, Redline. The things I do for you. I'm sorry, I really don't have a lot to say. EXCEPT. That I'm working on going to the Warped Tour this summer. The Cab is on the line-up. God, I want to meet Alex DeLeon so freaking bad. :)

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007. I miss the part when we were moving forward now.

It's heavily snowing outside. The day before I have to leave to go back to college. Wooo! It's too bad that none of my friends are home; I'd have to go sledding alone. I'm packing everything up, doing laundry, making sure I have everything. I don't want to leave without anything. I usually always forget something. I'll be driving on I75, and I'll realize that I left something at home. Such a wonderful realization. Oh, well. I'm still kind of sick. My sinuses are dying, but I'm making it through. I'm really excited to actually try to make friends this semester at college. I'm sick of hating BGSU, so i've got to make a change. I have to. I won't stand for anything else. This is my last day in this town until February. It's a bittersweet goodbye. I'm saying goodbye to my best furry friend, wifi internet that actually works and my family and going somewhere that I'm supposed to call home.

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006. Look at what you've found. I'm falling down.

It's kind of sad how people can be such good friends and then suddenly something happens, and it's like you're strangers. I hate that feeling so much. It's like going to the grocery store to get ice cream, and when you get there, they're all sold out of every type of ice cream except that disgusting frozen sherbet with chunks of pineapple. . . . GROSS. There's an empty void left in your stomach. You feel uneasy, knowing that there are days that go by that they're living life, not realizing that you're there. There are days that go by when I sit and realize that he's probably walking along the beach at SCAD, and he doesn't even care that there's a void my life that he used to fill. I have a hard time realizing that life goes on even if you never say anything to them again. It's weird to go through a time when you have so many things to say to them, and you wish you could just go up to them and start a conversation. But then you realize that they've just fixed their memory, and to them, you don't exist anymore. Oh, reality and it's clean sting.

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005. You ran the race.

I'm going to take the time for an introduction of sorts. I'm no good with making a good first impression, in fact, I believe that as we come to know people, the first impression vanishes. So, hello. I'm Lnze. I'm a student at Bowling Green State University. I'm not sure what i'm studying, I don't know what I want to do with the rest of my life. I'm a photographer, a musician and definitely not a mathematician. I've played piano for the last 10 years of my life. For the past 5 years, I've played percussion. Vibraphone and marimba, though I prefer the latter if I had to pick one. I listen to just about every type of music ever imaginable. My favorite band is The Cab. Alex DeLeon has talked sense into my brain so many times, and he doesn't even know it. I'm in love with him. He has a way with words that no other song writer has. I want people to know about him and his wonderful band, but I don't want to turn the radio on and hear his voice singing out of some lame pop station. I play a lot of video games. My first favorite video game was Kingdom Hearts. Confession time- I never finished it. I couldn't beat Ansem in the final world. So, I moved on to Final Fantasy X and X-2. I played X-2 before I knew about X, and I have yet to finish either of them. I don't really finish any video game I start. But, Pokemon is a different story. I first played Pokemon Crystal, in which my neighbor traded me a Lv. 100 Articuno. That thing was BADASS. I beat the elite four on that game really easily. I bought Pokemon Gold and Silver. I haven't beaten either of them, in fact I don't know where Pokemon Silver is. Oh well. I have the Ruby version in which I caught and trained a Bagon up to a Salamence and a Trapinch up to a Flygon. I've beaten the elite four plenty of times with that game. I want to start over, but I like my pokemon too much. I bought LeafGreen. . . . I hate it. You can't train pokemon very well. I don't play that one at all. I have Pokemon Pearl and Platinum. I recently started my Pearl over again. . . I'm terrible. Although Platinum is another story. I'm currently training my team to take on the elite four. My team consists of Torterra, Empoleon, Houndoom, Pachurisu, Garchomp and Toxicroak. I'm hoping to defeat the elite four in one fateful sweep. We'll see where that leads to. That's really all I have to say when it comes to a "brief" introduction. K, bye! :)

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004. Waiting.

I'm sitting here waiting for my phone to get all the texts I got from last night after it died. It'll take a good fifteen minutes, so I thought, hey why not write the daily blog? I saw Avatar last night. . . . truly magnificent. Absolutely wonderful. I will totally go see it again. I'm feeling better, thankfully. My fever melted away at around 730 last night. Just in time to see the Na'vi. Now, I'm going to go to the Rec center and turn in my application for a summer job. I really hope they hire me, because I'll need to pay off this little thing called REDLINE. then I'm going to come back to mi casa, take a picture for this blog and make some cookies. i think. I've been playing a lot of pokemon lately. Probably because that's all I could really do besides sleep when I was sick these past two days. I've caught myself a Gible and it evolved last night to a Garchomp. I'm a proud mother. I'm currently training a Turtwig I got from the Pokemon GTS last night. I put a Croagunk up for trade because I already have a Toxicroak from an older game. Some japanese person traded me a Turtwig, so the whole Pokedex is in Japanese... that's a bummer. So, my phone isn't getting those texts, but I have to go before the Rec Center closes. Just another boring day, I guess you'd say :)


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003. This never happens.

Things I need to get done in 2010

• get a job


• see the cab in concert, at least twice.


• meet alexander deleon <3


• make some friends this semester in college


• survive living in a freshman dorm with inconciderate people


• meet someone i'll never forget


• exercise more


• go to Drum Corp International finals this summer


• re-read Harry Potter multiple times


• finish this year in college with at least a 3.4GPA.


• beat the elite four in pokemon pearl and platinum and gold.


• catch a legendary pokemon using only a pokeball.


• figure out what i'm doing for the rest of my life


• be a happier person

Let's get productive. Let's get this done.
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002. We are the instigators.

Another day ahead of me, and I am sicker than I was before. The fever has risen to 102.5. I am not at redline this weekend, and I'm really upset about that. It doesn't make anything any better when Heather continuously texts me "we really need you here." Um, alright. Let me plead my case, plzthx. I have a sore throat, fever of 102.5 and a pounding headache. I cannot focus for the life of me, and you expect me to drive 4 hours when the roads are icy and not safe when I can pay attention? Yeah, that sounds a little bit more daring than I'm willing to be. I know the new year is all about "living like you're dying" and to "take chances", but i'm not about to take that chance. I'm having a hard time sitting up in my bed as it is. With that being said, i'm going to go sleep some more to get rid of infections and viruses that are plaguing my body.

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001. First train home, I've got to get on it.

For the next 365 days of the year, I will be blogging my life. I don't think anyone reads this, but I mean, power to you if you do :)
Rules to this blog, because there has to be something interesting to it.
1. Every day - a new blog.
2. Blog must contain a picture; which I guess means I'm doing a 365 picture challenge as well. Wonderful :)
3. No time limit as to when it has to be posted, because I can see things getting weird when I'm actually up at Redline for the whole weekend.

So, new years day. I am sick! Strep throat and fever. Super great. I'm not so sure about Redline tomorrow at 5am. I don't know if I'm going to be healthy enough to drive 3.5+ hours in the snow and ice up to Michigan. I love Redline, but I'm not going to put my life in jeopardy to go up there tomorrow morning and come home on Sunday. It's a lot, even when I'm healthy.

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